Day 21 – Today’s reading in Older, Wiser, Fiercer is one that I would love to put up for all to read, because there is so much in it that I relate, I’m finding it difficult to whittle it down to a quote or two! As I lay in bed this morning thinking about my day and sharing a few moments with meditation, I was overcome with a peace and happiness that I know to be true. That is new for me, as these past few months, here at school, has seeded a great self-understanding. A personal knowing that is deep and connected.
Carol opens “This Patch”, on page 126 with these words, “One of the greatest gifts of later life is that we can grow to become not nearly as fascinated with our original wounds as we used to be.” I wanted to shout, (or add), “…. And grow to let go of our mistakes!”
I went to university for the first time at 47 years old. I had “plans” and the one-song I travel along trusting, laughed! I was haughty, arrogant and stubborn. Like the potter and the clay story, over the years, I have been molded and nuanced. Just this week a classmate shared how she had recently completed a pottery class and her greatest takeaway is no matter how many times the vessel is messed up, you can always start with it again.
That is the beauty of aging. At some point you no longer want to be “kilned”. Is that a word? What I mean by that, is in my aging I now realize when I am put through the fire the last time I am finished. So while I do not know the process of pottery working intimately, I think there are two fires. If I could, I would miss the fire altogether but I think we need to be fired a little. I want to stay in the hands of that which is molding me, making me, and maneuvering me, trusting in the process and not worrying about the outcome, or what I will be in the end.
Carol further writes, in this wee chapter, “ … there comes a time when the sheer magnitude of who you really are and what you have made of your life can no longer be circumscribed by the size of your story. You arrive at last into the realm of the awakened elder ….. “ (buy the book to finish the sentence!)
I am at peace.
I am content.
I am full of positive life energy…
I am …. that!
After the full light of the moon, we begin the journey back to darkness …. women ignite, grow and burn deep with from your heart centre.
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