This morning I got into a nice cool shower. It felt good after the warmth of the night. I was feeling sticky and hot with this recent heat wave, a two minute shower often is the ticket to refreshing the soul.
As I stood in the shower, I looked down and there was something on the floor of the shower that stood out. It was a dark spot on the shower floor and headed for the drain. My instinct was to stop it and I did. I was a bit freaked out as thoughts rushed through my mind. What is that? I pushed it aside, held it there and shut off the shower. Curious though I was I was hesitant I might get bit, if it was a spider!
I tried to look closer and just could not make it out. I watched it to see if it was going to sprout legs and move. It did not so I thought maybe I had killed it by drowning! OH no! I save a chipmunk, drown an insect. I felt terrible. I stepped out dripping water and reached for some toilet paper and carefully gathered it up. I still could not make out what it was, so left it on the toilet paper, in the sink and finished my shower.
I guess I should remind everyone, I wear glasses. Without my glasses I cannot see anything outside of furry shapes in my line of sight. I wear reading glasses when I read because bifocals give me a headache so only use them in passing everyday. This is why I could not see what it was that was joining me for a shower today.
After my shower, I dried off and dressed and got my glasses and then went to look at this horrible, scary, fearsome creature. As I approached the sink it had not moved and upon further inspection I realized it was a sliver off the beautiful creamy bar of soap I use. The soap is homemade and is marbled with green and beige. This little invader was a sliver of the previous piece I had married on to the new piece as it got too small to use. Today it had broke free.
I reflected on how important my glasses are for me to see properly and clearly. I am grateful I have spent time allowing for curiosity and exploration of all things in my life. I replayed in my morning how I could have leaped from the shower in fear, I could have slipped on the wet surfaces or stood frozen in place wondering how to get out of this predicament. There are so many ways this could have played out. In the foggy vision I had it was critical I stayed calm, took time to assess and then acted. I was not in danger at any point except from my reaction.
How often in life do we react in haste and perceived fear? When have you been blinded or looked through lenses that are outdated or past tense? Leaving oneself open to curiosity brings hope and an awareness that can blind you with beauty and cleanse your soul in peace.
Make sure all the lenses in your life are ones that are worthy of you holding on to them. Reassess and clarify you are not carrying childhood fears, adolescent injury or young adult anger. Cleanse the ego of debilitating forces and ridged thinking. Free yourself to explore when a piece of your life breaks away. Blossom in place! I can help!
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